☆Wednesday, May 20, 2009
oh god. someone up there help me please.
i am facing a huge dilemma.
okaye,
two dilemmas actually. one is a more realistic problem, and the other's kind of, well, frivalous in comparison XD
so yes, back to my dilemmas.
number one, ntu has sent me an email asking me to go down for a scholarships interview.
but i'm
a little, rather, pretty, kind of almost sure that i wanna go nus. i am also extremely kiasu and think that its really wasted if i don't go down for it. and the online appraisal ms ouyang wrote would go to waste. so being the disgusting procrastinator i am, i kept putting this off right from the very first day i saw the email. and wow, before i could even realise it, time flew past and
today is the freaking deadline for me to indicate my response. and ntu even called me during lunch today to ask me about it. the conversation went sth like this:
me: hello?
ntu: hi, i'm calling from ntu regarding the scholarships interview. your timeslot is actually blablabla. erm, have you checked your email?
me: (panics) erm, no.. i haven't checked my email lately. (smiles guilty-ly to self)
ntu: oh ok, its actually scheduled for you on blablabla. can you make it?
me(in my mind): oh dear. oh no. shit.howhowhow.
me: erm, is it okay if i go and check my email first about the details and i reply you by mail?
ntu: oh sure. please do so by today alright? today's the deadline.
me(in my mind): shitttttttttt ;__;
me: oh sure! thank you very much!
ntu: thanks.
(hangs)
hahahahah i am such a horrible girl. but i'm still considering so i really didn't know how to reply his question! :/ so i thought the best way was to feign ignorance. i ought to get shot, i know XD
i've consulted a few people and they all think i shouldnt go for it since i'm going nus. but i can't prevent myself from being greedy and kiasu! :( and yes, i admit, i'm very auntie. urghhh. okay somehow once i've typed this out and reflected on my actions this dilemma is kind of uncalled for and really kind of stupid. but i'm kind of lazy to go for the interview, and i kind of know that i will not go ntu. but i'm still kiasu.
sigh. but something in me tells me that i will end up not going cos
its on a monday morning,which means i have to take leave, plus its in some ulu area i'm very lazy and am reluctant to go prepare for the interview.
(sighs)
okay on to dilemma number two. XD (which everyone will roll their eyes at and not bother reading on)
i feel like shipping in this very wonderful arashi concert dvd (Arashi Around Asia 2008 in Tokyo) because its really really nice to watch. and the concert venue is like at kokuritsu, the national stadium and its the place where tokyo held the tokyo olympics back in 1964. and they're the third group to have performed there after SMAP and dreams come true, both very big names in the music industry. so it's like something huge. its a milestone! plus, all the songs and stage lightings,settings etc were so amazing! the behind the scenes was really interesting too! and how do i know all this? cos i've watched the whole thing online before. (faints)
so having watched it before, i know exactly how fantastic it is. if i ship it in, it wont be anything fresh anymore since i have watched all the contents. but its so fantastic that i wanna own it. it's about S$46 though and i don't know if i will regret buying it. i mean, there's only so many times that u can continue to rewatch a concert dvd, right?
asdfghjkl i dont know if i should buy it or not. (pulls hair)
it'd be nice to watch them on the big tv screen as compared to my tiny computer monitor though.
(sighs again)
why do i even bother to think so much. T__T it's making my head hurt with relatively unnecessary worries and considerations.
Labels: arashi, rantings:personal, university matters
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☆Sunday, May 10, 2009
i am having a horrible headache.
oh my gosh its unbearable x.x
its the same kind tht i had in j2 when i felt like my brain was contracting and my skull was squeeeezing my brain in so hard
omg help help.
i think it has to do with the weather recently.
i need some herbal tea. and i'll get some at amoy tmr. i'll get the most bitter tea they have.
omggg headache please disappear.
oh a not so painful note, i got my very first external hard disk!
its 320gb! : DDD
which is 10 times my antique computer's memory space
and its the portable kind so it's smaller than my palm and i carry it to office to load my videos into my mp5 thingy which can play videos :D
i am now a certified fangirl :D
i am downloading something everyday hohoho
... which might be a bad thing cos i spend my time on the train watching arashi videos
which are so freaking stupid and hilarious i cant help but laugh while watching
and even though i make it as discreet as possible,
well, its still not very discreet.
so please, if you see me on the train holding a small rectangular thing with my earphones on and grinning away at my small mp5, please do not be alarmed.
i'm not crazy(yet) but arashi is really too amusing <3
and another piece of extremely shocking news is that.
i got into nus law school.
never ever ever imagined that i would ever get in.
i mean, i'm like not very intellectual, am doing something unproductive most of the time, speaks chinese 80% of the time(the singaporean way, not the china way) and probably 47962956023470274 other things that will crush ur image of a typical law student.
but gah, i'll treasure this chance really well.
i admit i'm really lucky most of the time(and luckier than i deserve really) and i thank all the gods up there for looking over me everytime
i'll study hard! i really will!
i'll limit my youtube-surfing and drama watching
and spend more time studying haha
cant imagine myself as a law student, but well, we'll take things a step at a time i guess :)
ok i'll go and sleep my headache away now x.x
Labels: rantings:personal, university matters
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☆Sunday, April 05, 2009
i cant believe i just watched a japanese news clip about japan's fall in gdp in the fourth quarter last yr by 12.7%
it even explains japan's main components of gdp and how exports have fell by a lot and thus they have to rely on global consumption of japanese products to aid gdp recovery.
heh i feel so proud of myself :D
but of cos, i wouldnt have watched any of it if mr. sakurai sho wasnt the news caster xDDD
oh sho, you make me interested in news and economics.
iluism♥♥♥
you arent a keio econs grad for nth! :D
and SIGH why hvn i received anything from any university
whywhywhywhy ):
HURRY MAIL ME URGH
Labels: arashi, university matters
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☆Sunday, March 22, 2009
i normally hate saying this word, but seriously,
EEEEEFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF IT.
bloody hell
i cant sustain a proper conversation w YOU anymore without feeling freakingly QI GEK and having tears well up in my eyes.
EFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.
urgh this suckssss ):
what's the point of getting the grades i have if we cant come to a consensus and i cant decide what i eventually want to do?
seriously, wtf. Labels: rantings:personal, university matters
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☆Thursday, March 05, 2009
i.feel.like.shit.
shit factor #1: A lvls results are coming out tmrrrr. how shitty is that. very very shitty.
shit factor #2: i dont knw wht i wanna do anymore. after i kinda eliminated my options, i thought that i would go with accountancy. but it seems like
the whole world the adults dont think its a good choice. rah. can u imagine my aunt called all the way from malaysia just to check if my results were out?! and my dad had this long happy chat with her and "oh, so what would u recommend qiuyu to go into?" and "ya, i think law is still the best too". like, T_T?! i think part of the reasons i dont wanna do law is cos im totally being rebellious and i dont want to do what my father has wanted me to do since i was how young -.- sounds unbelievably childish but yes x.x and PLUS its highly unlikely i'll get into law anw -_- ARGHH i wish he'd stop having dreams for me when i dun even have any for myself djnknwoifeflm
shit factor #3: office ppl are going to ask me for my results when i return to work on monday. extremely shitty. :/
shit factor #4: stella's leaving for her barn in melbourne tmr ): which means we wont get to see her for like a few months! :O i'll miss you loads girl!!! take care in australia k! (hugs)
shit factor #5: im rotting in office. again. how am i gonna live past the end of the day rotting with all the anxieties in my heart!!!! gg T_T
sigh, dont mind me, its just the pre-results-day angst. ARGH.
Labels: A levels, rantings:personal, university matters
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